Today is one of those days in which you do not want to do anything but to lay in bed and think about your life and the choices you've made.
So in this brief post I will tell you my current thoughts. Today is not a good day. That sentence is the perfect description to my mind right now. I don't know if it even makes sense but I think you get the idea.
Today is one of those days when you start asking yourself stupid questions such as: Am I fitting in? Do I have someone to trust my feelings to? Am I all by myself? And that way you start to feel a little bit depressed. What I mean by stupid questions is that you already know the answer to those questions. It is just that everybody has its  insecurities and sometimes it makes you feel like you are nothing or like you will end being nothing. But at the end of the day we all know that this is not true.
When you get to know me I may seem like a strong person but deeply inside me I have a loooooot of insecurities. For instance, I am not comfortable with a lot of parts of my body or even with my personality...
This creates a fear of rejection inside me that causes a little bit of anxiety sometimes that, in my case, just lead to a bad day. (My bad days are not based on crying or anything like that mainly because is very very hard for me to cry, I will tell you why in another occasion).
During those bad days I just wonder about my current situation and everything going on in my life...

To avoid the depression after being thinking about these kind of things I like to focus on what it really matters. I forget about the pointless or meaningless things and I try to focus on the important things. That way those bad thoughts go away and you end up forgetting what was really bothering you.

Another choice to avoid this depression is to completely change the activity or the thing you were doing when those thoughts came to your mind. And that is what I do the most.
For instance, an hour ago those bad thoughts invaded my head and I chose not to let them in and completely change subject. And that is when I decided to focus all my attention into writing a post about my feelings and those bad days. And believe it or not it does really help. Right now I feel so much better than when I started to write this post. When I started I didn't even know how to structure my thoughts because I was not very sure of what my feelings were. However I can definitely tell the difference and how changing the subject and the activity that I was doing has helped me to forget what was bothering me in the first place.

So this post is kind of an advice one (or a self-advice, as I was following my own ones). I hope it makes sense and you'd like this post.
Thanks for reading! See you soon ^^


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